There is a fine line between dreaming and thinking ... between the
dreams you see and thoughts you contemplate. I dream about Harry
Potter(my prince charming) but I think about that stupid boy who likes
me for who I am. He even says that it is ok for me to go out with Harry
if I ever meet him and he would have no problem with that.
But
will I ever be able to leave him just to go out with Harry, my dream. On
the spur of the moment I might think my prince charming is perfect for
me. But the reality might be different. Harry Potter is not even real
damn it. I have fallen for a person who is not even real. Can I call it
love ? My love for a person who doesn't exist seems so unreal.
Sometimes I wonder about the feelings I have for this stupid boy. Is
that love? if it is love then what about the feelings that i have for
Harry ? This question has no answer. Harry is brave and perfect. Harry
makes the impossible possible ... he is special.
But, whenever I
am in trouble or need some crucial suggestions I turn to that stupid
boy. He knows me well, he never judges me , listens to me and suggests
me. I cannot .... ( my phone beeps) ...
"hey, what doin ?" the
message says, which is a reply to the text I sent him 6 hours earlier
saying , "I need some suggestion from you" ...
just this message is
enough for me ... on this spur of moment I decide that dreams are not
real but thoughts are .... thoughts are rational ... real .... and worth
a fight. When we talk about our dream job or dream life .... we
actually mean the job that we think is perfect .. or a life we think is
perfect ... so after all we are chasing our thoughts .... this stupid
boy is the person I think of ... i worry when he says he didn't have
lunch or dinner .. I worry if his day went well today ... I always wish
best for him ...
He may not be Harry but he is real and nice ... so he is more than Harry ...
With this thought in mind, I pick up the cellphone and start texting him with a smile ...
P.S - He doesn't know yet that I have already fallen for him but I am
not sure whether he has also fallen for me or just helping me as a good
friend.
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